As time passes by, I realised how stupid I was for believing your stupid promises, it’s funny how I sweet your promises were before, now it disgusts me more than the smell of blue cheese. You were so careless about everything, but you didn’t bother to think straight when you made that decision, you thought that it was the best for the both of us. You were selfish, you cared about your feelings, and only YOUR feelings, you wanted me to understand you and why did u made that decision, but do you ever cared about how I felt when you said that? Do you have any idea how sad I was? Do you any idea how broken I was? Do you have any idea how dumb and stupid I felt? Do you have any idea of…how….lost I felt at that time? You don’t. You never did. You wouldn’t. You were like my crutches when I can’t walk, I was limping, then I found you, because of you I can walk properly, but then… you broke apart. So I fell, I got scars, wounds, bright red blood of mine scattered everywhere on the pavement. Tears welled up I my eyes, slowly, it fell onto my cheeks then dropped onto my denim jeans. I was stupid, why did I even rely to you a 100% when I can rely to others, such as my family. Our love blinded my eyes and made my brain so stupid to trust you. Trust your words that made me think that you are the one. I love you. I love you. I love you. I miss you. I miss you. I miss you. Those were the words that always screamed in my mind whenever I thought of you. All the sad songs made its way to my brain and heart, I used to hate love songs, but I loved them when you listened to them. Every song reminded me of you, your smile, your voice, and the I love you and the I miss you that you always said whenever we’re on the phone. Up until now, I can still smile remembering our late night convos and your voice imitating my whispering voice because I don’t want my parents to hear me calling you. And every time your voice says the word darling and baby. Oh wow, god knows how sweaty my hands were and how crazy my heart beats to that. And I miss every time we laughed at how bad my Wi-Fi was. I miss the day when I was in the bus with all my friends and got her jealous of how clingy we were. You calling me while I’m in the bus, talked about random stuffs and that one time when you fell asleep while you’re still on the phone with me. Oh and every time I got you jealous, you were so cute sulking here and there. Yes, I still cherish the moments that we spent together, even though our relationship was only behind a screen.