29 August 2018
This I believe
I believe in God. I have grown up in the Southern Baptist church since I was born. As a kid, I went to church, not necessarily knowing or understanding what religion really was. Every Sunday, I would get up on Sunday mornings, eat my cinnamon rolls that my mom made, get dressed and go to church with my brother, sister, and my parents. I would attend Sunday school and children’s church, and sit and listen, and play the games that the teachers made up. But I never truly knew or understood what it meant or what was necessarily going on. Then one day, when I was six years old, my best friend at the time, decided he wanted to get baptized and accept Christ. So, since he was doing it, I figured I wanted to do it too because I was jealous. My parents kept asking me “do you know what it means to be baptized? Do you understand what is going on when it happens?” just simple questions like that. In all honesty, I had absolutely NO idea what any of it meant, I just wanted to be up in the baptism with my friend(s) in front of everybody.
So, after about a week of crying and throwing fits, my parents let me get baptized with my friend(s), and I was insanely happy and felt like a completely new person. But I still had absolutely no clue how/why it was so important, I was just happy to get to do what all the other kids were doing. But eventually, I did start to pay attention and really listen and focus to what the pastor said, and what it truly meant to believe. It was a long and slow process but eventually I did start to get the hang of it. Being a believer has made me who I am today. Even though at this point in my life I start to question things, it is still the main reason I am who I am. I try to be as nice as I can to everybody, try to help anyone in need when they are feeling down. Also I try to relate to people’s problems as much as I can. Even if I have no relation to their situation whatsoever, I still try. A lot of the time when something bad happens in my life, I think of the big man upstairs. Then just hold on to the hope that He is going to fix the problem. The best part about it is, when I put my hope and faith in God, the problem always ends up fixed in the best way possible. When I don’t pray or put my faith in Him, the problem just kind of does its own thing, and either gets worse, or it gets fixed, but not in a way that I am normally too pleased with. But like I said, when I put my faith in God, the problem is resolved in the best way I could imagine.
The struggles I face with religion is just simply growing up. Growing up is hard, especially for religion. This is because as I get older, and pay more attention to the real world, I question why some things are considered okay; and some things are considered the sin that will condemn someone to Hell. Maybe there is not any specific sin that could literally condemn someone to Hell; but my point is that they are one of the top worst sins on the list. So paying more and more attention to the real world, and looking back on religion instead of ahead; I start to question things because this world is a very dark place to live in. But even with how dark and cruel this world is, I try to keep my focus on God and focus on the positives. That usually seems to help the most.