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I was sitting by the water looking at my phone when my mom called and gave me the worst news, I started crying and laid my head on the ground
Today is a pretty normal day. I was running my normal errands and walking home from the shops near the water. On my way home, I notice a girl sitting by the water in tears.
I approach the girl, though I’m cautious. “Hey, are you alright?” He asks calmly.
“n..oooo.. my brother has cancer and he is dying” I couldn’t say anymore and brusted into tears
I was surprised at first. She seemed to just be having a stroke of bad luck. I sit down beside her, smiling sadly. “I understand. Really, I do. My mother died of pancreatic cancer a few years back. It’s terrifying and it hurts, but all you can do is give them hope till the very end if this chapter in life. Whatever happens…. Just be there.” I say sadly.
” how he meant the world to someone I could tell stuff to someone that will hug me when i need to be hugged” I couldn’t take so I cried again “sorry, but what is ur name i am crying all over you” again I started crying
“Eris. My name is Eris.” I say softly. I let her cry as she clearly just needed someone there. Someone to cry with.
“Eris i love that mines Racheal,” i said through my tears all i really want is someone there for me and someone to hold me and just let me cry
“Nice to meet you Racheal.” I say softly. “Racheal, the sun will be settings soon. I think it’s best you go home or find a place to stay… You’re welcome to stay with me if you have nowhere else to go.”
“Okay, thanks” I get up and go with Eris, i start crying thinking about my brother ” Sorry Eris i soo sorry”
I take her hand, “It’s alright. I’ve been here before. You need someone there for you. I am happy to be that person.” He says kindly.
“Thanks so much, i don’t know what i would do if you didn’t come,” I said
“Come on. Let’s get inside. It’s supposed to rain tonight.” Eris says, smiling. “The reason I am not mad is because I’ve been on both sides. I’ve been in your situation… But I’ve also been in your brother’s situation. I sat with my mother everyday they’d let me in. I would sit and hold her hand so she knew I was there. I always did.” Eris says.
“But, I’ve also had cancer. Thyroid cancer a few years after my mother died. It’s difficult to cure, so I got lucky. I know I only have s few years left. I want to make the most of them.”
“Oh my gosh really you had CANCER,” him being alive and him talking about his mother doesn’t make me feel better, “why would you be mad,?” I asked and for some reason, i start to cry not able to control
“Yeah. I guess I got a little less lucky. But it means I know what your brother is going through. I know what you’re going through. And I want to be here for you for as long as you’ll let me.” He says, sad to see her cry.
“I’ll let you be here for me as long as you want to” i said and sit down on the couch nearest to me “I just love my brother soo much it wont be the same without him, and i cant see him because he doesn’t want to see me cry” I Cry because i miss my bro
“Hey, he’ll come around. He needs some time to come to terms with hus condition. But he will need you there with him. If he loves you, he won’t push you away.” Eris says. He tried to push his sister away from him when he was diagnosed. He couldn’t get through anything without her there with him.
“Thanks, right now i just need something else to talk about, and tomorrow do you think you can be there was i see my brother please because your right he’ll come around but i wanna see him. I said wishes i can have someone to hug me and make me feel better
“Of course I can. You just have to ask. I’ll always be there if you ask.” He says, sitting beside her on the couch. “What do you want to talk about? Anything to get your mind off of everything.”
” i dont know maybe we should get to know one another” i said and move close to Eris hoping that doesn’t bother him.
“Well, I wouldn’t mind telling you about myself.” He says, unfazed when she gets closer to him. “What do you want to know?”
“Anything your willing to tell” I said wishes for him to let me lay my head on him
“Alright. My name is Eris Ulysses Moralis. I’m twenty-one and I’m a philosopher. Hmmm. I graduated from New York University a few months ago and moved here to start a new life.” He says in thought.
“Hm…21 you say, i am only 16 hope that doesn’t bother you Eris,” I said
“Okay i say something, I am Racheal Granger Malfoy, i am 16, i am still in school and i hope that i can find someone great to start a life with”
“Hmm, well, that changes nothing for me. Sure, you’re younger than me. It doesn’t bother me at all.” He says, smiling. She has a whole life ahead of her. He’d like to be there for her.
“I’m sure you will find someone. You deserve that.” He says softly.
“Hm…ur right, but right now i just want you near and i want you to be part of my life” I said “You seem like a good guy and i don’t want to lose that i want it all to myself” I laugh at that “do you agree” i asked
“I can be a part of your life. Of course I can. And I guess I’m a good guy….” He says, thinking. “You want it all to yourself?” He asks, curious as to what her motives are. “But I can’t say I don’t agree.”
“What do you not agree with,” i asked ” do you not want to be part of my life, be the person i go to the person who gives me the love i need,” i said “what do you not agree with,” i asked again
“I mean, my only issue is you’re young. I could get in trouble with the law of someone reads too far into this. Personally, I’ve dealt with enough cops in my lifetime.” He says, frowning.
“But I doesn’t to be a part of your life, I do want to be that person for you. I want to.” He says, looking at her.
“I am still so confused Eris” Starting to cry ” It love that what it is, what the problem and it not a big difference” Crying hard this time and only want Eris close
Eris gives in. His features soften and he sighs. He wraps his arms around her, holding her close and letting her cry. She doesn’t deserve to be in pain. She deserves a good life. He’s willing to bring her the life she wants.
“please Eris, please let me be part of your life and we can live a happy life” i said through tears
It pains him to see her this way. To see her sad and terribly upset. “It’s alright, Racheal. I’m here and I’m not going to leave you.” He says softly. She’d be happy with him. He’d be a part of her life until she doesn’t want him anymore.
“I am losing my brother, and i need you” I cried ” I really do because……your the only thing that matters to me right now other then my brother, please Eris, I promise i wont be those girls who want you and then hate you and then leave you because i….love you” i said
They cut through him like a knife. There’s no way he’s letting her be in pain like this. He won’t leave her. He pulls away slightly so he can see her face. “I promise you, I will be here as long as you need me. As long as you want me.” He says quietly. He wipes her tears away gently, moving the hair out of her eyes.
“I will throw my life away for you. I will be the man you want. Because I love you too.” He says softly. And then he kisses her.
I kiss back “Thanks so much Eris that means a lot, do you mean it though, really” I kiss him again
“One thing about me: I’m not a liar. I do mean it. I always will.” He says softly. “And you don’t have to thank me. I’m just being honest.” He says quietly before kissing her again.
“Thanks, Eris, that means a lot” i said Kissing him back
“What should we do now?” i asked
“Well, what do you want to do? We can do whatever makes you happy. Watch movies till we fall asleep on the couch, I could cook food, whatever you like.”
“oh hm…I just wanna be close to you, we should watch a scary movie so i can stay close to you” I said
“Alright, scary movie it is.” He says.
He puts a scary movie on and sits beside her. He lets her get close to him, perfectly happy with her being close to him.
As I watched with Eris i didn’t realize that there was a pop out and i screamed which for some reason set me off and i started crying, I stayed soo close to him because i was soooo scared “O h my gosh that was scary i said rubbing my eyes, i need you soo close to me so i know i will be okay” I said
He smiles. Any closer and she’d be sitting on his lap. If she needs to be closer to him, so be it.
He pulls her onto his lap, wrapping his arms around her waist and holding her close. “Better?” He asks softly.
“Yes amazing, i said kissing him, thank you, oh and Eris, i might need to stay here awhile if that is fine with you” I said crying because she is happy to have Eris in here life.
“Stay as long as you need to.” He says. He frowns when she starts crying. He wipes her tears away so gently, careful not to hurt her in any way. “It’s okay.” He says softly.
“Okay,” I said cuddled up with Eris “you are the best boy that i have ever meet,” I said, “Can I go see my brother now I have to”? I asked
“I mean, it’s raining currently. And it’s nighttime, which means he’s probably asleep.” Eris says. “The best boy? I’m not that great.”
“no you are the best boy ever,” I said “Eris I didn’t tell you but I am afraid of thunder just so you know. I said
“Oh, well, that’s great. Actually, while you’re afraid of thunder, I’m terrified of thunderstorms.” He says with a small laugh. “Best boy ever. And you are the most wonderful young lady I could’ve ever met.”
“Haha, since were scared of the same things, you can hold me so i know your there and you will know that i am here,” I said ” I wanna cry again, uggggg” I said “oh and Eris thanks sooo much for making me happy you are the best” I said
“You can cry if you want to. I’ll be here to hold you, protect you and tell you everything is alright. I will always be here to make you smile.” He says softly.
So I let out my tears, while my new boyfriend holds me, ” I have never got that lucky you know to find someone to love me, you mean soooo much to me, and I think my big bro will be excited to meet you, I never told you this, but I should……He only has……1 week left. I cried more and was so sad but I knew i was loved and that Eris loved me!!!! and I just cry
Eris’s eyes widen and then sadden. He holds her tight and just lets her cry. “Well, I love you. And we can go see your brother in the morning. How does that sound?” He asks softly.
He loves her. He truly does. But even when he does their relationship is illegal. He can be arrested for this. But he doesn’t care. He loves her. He wants to be with her. No law will keep him away.
“Okay, thanks Eris you are truly the best, without I don’t know where’d be,” I said trying to sound tough that I wasn’t crying “Eris do you know that I wish i was umm…not….alive because without my brother i don’t feel like anyone would care what I would think or wouldn’t bother about my feeling” i said looking away from Eris not knowing what he would say or think of her then.
He’s silent for a moment. He carefully takes her hand and smiles sadly. “I’ve been in your shoes before. Without my mother, I wanted to end it all. What kept me going was my family. When she died, I needed to be there. Without my father, I needed to take care of my sisters. I needed to put my grief aside and be there for them. And when I found my time to grieve, I did. But I didn’t let it stop me. I didn’t let it tear me apart.” He says kindly.
“Racheal, if you think no one would care if you’re gone, you’re wrong. I would care. I would have to face everyday and remember you died. I don’t want you to go. I want to love you and be here with you.” He says sadly.
That makes me cry “really Eris, without you i would feel so bad, i would never live life without you that you sooo much” She cried and then ended up taking a deep breath and trying to smile “Eris can you kiss me please i need to know that I am not alone” I said thanks so much just thanks you” and I smiled and meant it
“That, I can do. You are never alone. I will always be here.” He says softly and then he kisses her. She doesn’t even need to ask him.
“Great, now i know i aint alone” I didn’t cry i actually laughed and asked him “what now”
“It is getting late. Are you tired or not?” He asks, knowing that crying can make people really tired. And she’s done a lot of it.
“Yeah i guess, i am” i said “where will i sleep”? I asked
“I guess I’ll sleep on the couch.” He says, smiling. “I’ll let you stay in my room for the night.” He says
“I also didnt tell u i hate being alone but sure” i said
“If you don’t want to be alone, I’m not going to let you sleep on the couch, that’s just cruel. If you want…. I’ll let you sleep in my room with me tonight.” He says, not trying to be suggestive or anything.
“Yeah, that would be great” I siad Not trying to sound weird because I just hate to alone nothing else “i promise I am not trying to be weird i just hate to be alone!!! i said
“I know you aren’t. Relax, it’s fine. I’ve gotten used to being alone, but I used to hate it.” He says with a soft smile. “He stands up, helping her to her feet before taking her hand and guiding her to his room.
I was getting on the bed and I was just looking out the window when for some reason I think that I see my brother standing out there and i scream and start crying and run out the bedroom to go see my brother that i think i saw “Drake, is that you” i said in tears, and when I realize that he isn’t there i fall the the ground crying
Eris looks up at her scream in horror, watching her run from the house and out onto the street in the rain. Eris runs outside after her, the rain pouring down on his head. His dark brown hair is soaked by the time he reaches her, finding her collapsed on the ground. “Racheal. Racheal, come back inside. I don’t want you to get sick from the cold.” He says, his blue eyes scanning her face with worry. Thunder echoes across the area and he flinches slightly.
“I can’t get up,” I said with tears in my eyes, “I thought I saw him, it was his face his everything it like he was right there, and now he is gone” I cry “Eris, I am scared super scared,” I said
“Shhh, it’s okay. It’s okay, I promise.” He says softly. He picks her up, carrying her into the house and out of the cold rain. “Sometimes, you see what you want to see. It gives you hope, buy it’ll break your heart. You may not want to here this, but you just have to let him go. It’ll hurt more if you hold on.” Eris says softly.
“oh okay,” I said falling asleep in Eris’s Arms because I cried too much “I love you Eris” I said
“I love you too, Racheal.” He says softly. He brings her to the bedroom and lays her in bed so she can rest, wrapping her in a warm blanket.
He sits out in the living room for a while, finishing some work he’d been assigned. He checks the time and finds that it’s two in the morning. He goes to the bedroom and crawls under the covers, careful not to wake Racheal.
The next morning i woke up and went to get ready for the day, i remember that we get to see my brother today, and i go wake Eris “Eris, get up you said we get to see my brother remember” I said smiling “Eris, you get to meet my brother” i laughed because Eris was looking at me funny
Eris laughs sleepily. “Alright, alright, I’m awake. I finished work late last night so I could take you to see him.” He mumbles. He eventually sits up and starts to get ready, changing his clothes.
” i am so happy i get to see my brother” And then i remember he only has a week and that just changes the way i feel “Oh Eris you think he will be happy to see me, i am afraid” I said I wake over to Eris look at himself in the mirror, and kiss him. “good morning sleepy head”
Eris smiles, “Morning, love.” He mumbles. “I’m just glad you’re happy. It’ll be nice to see him, I’m sure. And he’ll be very happy to see you, no doubt in my mind.” Eris says.
“really”? I asked ” do you think he’ll be happy to meet you because I hope he is you are the best person that happens to me I love you Eris,” I said jumping everywhere “Come on Eris you soooo slow” I laughed
“I’m not slow.” He growls. “I know he’ll be happy to see you. I never said he’d be happy to see me. He love you as I love you, but he may not accept you dating me. Especially since our relationship is pretty much illegal.”
“Hmm…then dont tell him your age” I said for some reason i just ran up and jumped on Eris and laughed “Hehe” i said and kissed him
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