Into her arms
I left my heart close for a while. I let it stay shut, because of the pain that I could not let go. I let affection and attraction become a talking point. Feeling something for someone just because you want to have a piece of normalcy, something pried open my final lines, was it time? Was it a moment that I witnessed? Or was it someone who brought upon the final knock which made me open the gates. I opened I did things I never could in the past.
You made me laugh and cry, I really wished that I never let you. It was so much more painful because you didn’t even know that I let you in. You make me fantasize about being yours and you being mine. But when I knew you are not mine to take and you’ll never be. I look back at times that we sat together and that I played with your hair and you let me for a while but stopped me. I looked back at our tiny debates, I look back at the times we smiled and when our eyes met and there was that rush in me. I wished and dreamed for more. I wished for something more then what we had. I wished that you wouldn’t run to her. I wish you would run to me, but you never did and you never will.
In the end it was all in my head. It was all my make belief. All those moments I hope were real are most likely are not. Because at the end of the day it’s her arms you wish to run into, it’s her lips you wish to kiss, it’s her you want, and I am a mere person who wished for more when there was nothing, but no matter what happens, you’ll have place in my arms. Until someone takes me in theirs.