my scars

scars

Writing prompt 6 

Let’s talk a little bit on type of scars, there many ways that you could use the word “scar”

And as we all know the most used or the “correct” definitions of scars  is why we have an accident and leave us with a scar on our body on a mark on you that makes you remember every time. 

But there also different types that we could use the word scar like we all have family issues or something that hurt us a lot that leave us a scar on the inside and is not just the definition “scar” used to point a scar on the outside it’s also common to used it as  a scar on the inside and those are the ones that mark you the most. Those are the ones that could make you feel different in just a minute or even seconds, the scar on the inside are the ones that mark you forever and they will never leave at all if you don’t leave your heart open and talk to someone to heal little by little.

And I know that sometimes it’s hard for some people to open up and talk to a close friend or even to a person especially, because we have to get the courage to speak and raise our voices so you can be free and feel much better with yourself.

And the people outside could just tell you to tell them your story but it opens your feelings again and being able to control your emotions takes time and it really does.

It’s not that easy to speak and tell everyone you stir but I learned that it’s better to talk to someone and let all of your feelings out because the more that you let it pass by the more it would hurt you and the more that it would get harder for you to overcome.

I will talk about one of my scars and i think its a inside scar because it it abou my parents, i know some kids does not affect their parents getting divorced something that will hurt them but for me i was very hard because i always wanted a family that could go to lunches or dinner together or even just go to trips but when they were together me and my sister didn’t get the perfect “family trip” because the most of the time my dad was working to provide to us.

Sometimes i wish i spend more time with my family when i got the together because i left my house when i was 14 to study on united states and that was a choice that i made by my own but those years where the last year that my parent were together and i alway feel sad because i think about the time that a didint spend with my parents when they were together.

But I guess all families have their own problems. Even if i stayed there i would make any difference because it was something that my parents chose and maybe it was for the best for both of them.

I guess i’m happy for the time that i got with them together and spend them as a family, i know that we always be a family but the fact that their not together does not change anythings, but i always wanted the family together, since i was little when my dad got from job i was telling all the family that we were having a day for all of us to play a table game so i got my mom, sister and dad together and play for a bit, those moments are the ones that a treasured and those moments i will treasurer theme forever, i guess i prefer to stay with those things about our family than the new ones.

So that my inside scar that makes me who i am and all of those scars make you stronger and stronger for the world that we have ahead of us.

Also we have to find beauty in our skin and there’s many ways that we cans look at it like that.Beauty is a concept I struggle what it means, why it matters. I struggle because huge chunks of my life have not been beautiful. They have been ugly, marred by trauma, with pain, and anger.

We think of beauty and often visualize perfect  magazine pages and wafer thin models. We see beauty as superficial eye color, hair texture, and numbers on a scale. We see beauty as something to be measured.

I don’t see beauty that way. I see beauty as the grace point between what hurts and what heals, between the shadow of tragedy and the light of joy. I find beauty in my scars.  

We all have scars, inside and out. We have freckles from sun exposure, emotional trigger points, broken bones, and broken hearts.

However our scars manifest, we need not feel ashamed but beautiful.

It is beautiful to have lived, really lived, and to have the marks to prove it. It’s not a competition as in My scar is better than your scar but it’s a testament of our inner strength.