I remember it all. From his voice to the action. I am gonna say it was around 4th grade. I had run into some old friends into a store. Let’s say that his name was Jake, and his older brother Toby. I didn’t know these people but my sister was friends with their older sister so that’s how we became friends. So when I was friends with Jake he had invited me to so many parties. But the first party we had went together we spent the night that same night. A few sleepovers have passed and I fully trusted these people. And for a 4th grade I was smart as hell. And I knew stuff about sex, and Jake had gone to the store with his mom. Me and Toby were left alone, we’re getting ready to go to a party. So i had taken a shower and I remember hearing the door knob turn with a little creek. Toby was in there with me and I didn’t pay much attention to it. Toby was in 9th grade, he was taller, stronger, and faster. When I had finished showering he had said, “i’m just in here to get ready.” He said in a deep voice. I stepped out and he told me to bend over and i knew what was happening. I couldn’t move I was so scared and in shock on the thought on what was going on. Although he was very cute, he still did it. He had raped me. It felt like my heart had broken from the thought of a close friend hurting me. My stomach hurt so bad and i couldn’t cry. I felt it but the tears didn’t come it felt as if my soul had left my body. And it’s just that now I think about it it’s just like how can someone go on about their days knowing that the thing they did was gut-sickening. He had used me I had never felt the same and that was just the start. When we went to the party me and his brother Jake played hide-and-seek with other kids but Toby wanted to play. So when someone counted i had run off and Toby followed me. He said in a demanding voice, “kiss me.” I of course said, “no.” But he wouldn’t take that for an answer, so he threatened he would tell everyone what we had done in his bathroom, as sex but it wasn’t sex. It was rape. And he used that against me for a long time and it kept getting worse to the point to where we would have sex again. One time he had a new friend named Chris, I thought Chris would be different. But he wasn’t, one day Toby and Chris wanted to compare **** sizes. They made me the judge by making me ********** both of them, And to see if I gagged or not. Toby Won, he was so happy, I was feeling used as if I was just a pawn waiting for him to use me again. It was a war zone for my mind. Part of me was confused with sadness, the other anger and pain. But little did I know it was the beginning of the worst.