July 2- 3AM.
So here I am at 3am just writing something. No idea what! I’ll end up writing a topic? Maybe just what’s going on in my head right now.
I wonder how these next few months are going to go. Maybe some work will come up. Maybe I’m just jobless or maybe I get into SAG. Who knows?
It’s a scary phase of life where I’m just lurking into deep waters- BLIND FOLDED!
This is a weird phase of life where you don’t understand life fully or yourself for that matter. Look at me. From the happiest man in the world to being severely depressed to building up my broken self, probably I’ve come a long way. But there is still a long way to go.
Let’s think about it. I’m just 22- I’ve got probably 50 odd years ahead of me but the future right now seems foggy. It’s scary to think what if I’ve got to start all over again at some point. What if my career fails? What if I don’t get to where I really want to be? What if it’s all a web of lies designed by life itself just for it’s own amusement?
But then again what happens when I beat life at it’s own game and emerge victorious or what if life is just teaching me and wants me to really succeed?
Either way, I’ll find out, hope for the best!